Back to Square One

Looking back at the year that went by, I can't help but feel amazed at how so many things can happen in such short duration and still things tend to remain as they originally were. While I was scrolling through my internet profile pages, I bumped into my blog and in came a lot of memories and a sudden urge to type-in a new post. But expressing yourself through writing is a different ball game altogether. Let alone appealing vocabulary or stupefying combination of words, even a simple and understandable paragraph may seem to be a tough act to follow. Unfortunately, I too tend to flounder with this.

Anyways, ignoring the obvious, I began to reminisce. The new academic session had started with new hopes and ideas and an undeniable feeling of strength, motivation and courage. New goals were set and huge strides were taken towards fulfillment. But not even half among them were accomplished. It was as if all the motivation had suddenly spurted out. I was back to being the same guy who felt "ignorance is bliss". For me, it was like being normal again. Enjoying the events as they unfolded around me. Standing in the midst of a chaotic life style and doing nothing. That was me. Or was it just a disgruntled version of me trying to hide behind ignorance as an anodyne to a hectic existence. Either way, it felt more satisfying to close your eyes and let things be as they are. And thus bliss followed. Party nights, alcohol, cigarettes, photo-sessions in chilling Punjabi nights, walking on railway tracks while in a drunken stupor, getting chased by patrolling policeman etc. Some happened and some where just outcomes of a hyper imaginative stint.

These were some of the very memorable moments of my college life, which now is on a verge of extinction. As I enter into the final semester of my college life, I would tag this experience as baffling yet fulfilling. And now when I sit down to access myself, I find myself to be the same guy who entered the IITT College of Engineering three years ago.